it took seven months of trying to let you go.seven long months of a heavy heart and tired soul, and just when i've thought i finally let you go-
i found out you found someone else.
something inside me churned, not because i was jealous, but because it was the final stamp in my heart saying
"it's all over. move on."
i felt a stabbing pain for a two full minutes and then i noticed something, you were almost smiling.
i haven't seen a real smile on your face for almost a year. and i know you have absolutely no idea how much i missed seeing it.
but despite the overload of grain and filter editing in that photo of the two of you, i saw that smirk you used to get when we were together.
and suddenly...
all these weeks of feeling your pain and hurting because i knew you were hurting too, were worth it, just because of that smirk.i am so glad you are learning how to be happy again- i truly am (even if i'm not one of the things that bring you happiness).
and i hope with all the hope inside me that you will only find more happiness in the future (and i pray that happiness lands solely in Jesus Christ.)
currently quoting: "Become so full of grace that you allow your pain to turned into hope for someone else." -breakmychains on tumblr
currently listening:
xx. marcia
photos from my first solo airport adventure:
// first time at bojangles in charlotte, north carolina
// watching airplanes
// good books and pumpkin spice lattes
