letters to humans | v.3

dear young dad who was talking to his baby while shopping in sam's club,
"are you ready to go shopping with daddy? we're going to go buy some food, yes we areee."
your son's eyes were shining, even at such a young age, i can tell he already adores you.
please, i beg you with every thing inside of me, don't ever stop investing in his life. don't ever stop being his hero. don't ever stop listening to him.

love,
the girl who was trying to balance three bags of frozen dinner rolls

guys, i swear it was the cutest thing ever and it gave my heart fuzzies for days afterward, it was just him and his baby boy which was probably a few months old, and he was just cooing and talking to him nonstop. gahh, my heart.

(letters to humans, the documentation of human experience and encounters told by moi.)

currently quoting:

"you have listened to the fears, child." said aslan. "come, let me breath on you. forget them. are you brave again?"

// c.s. lewis

currently listening:

a quote.

(typography by yours truly) 

it was all worth it.

it took seven months of trying to let you go.
seven long months of a heavy heart and tired soul, and just when i've thought i finally let you go-
i found out you found someone else.
something inside me churned, not because i was jealous, but because it was the final stamp in my heart saying
"it's all over. move on."
i felt a stabbing pain for a two full minutes and then i noticed something, you were almost smiling.
i haven't seen a real smile on your face for almost a year. and i know you have absolutely no idea how much i missed seeing it.
but despite the overload of grain and filter editing in that photo of the two of you, i saw that smirk you used to get when we were together.
and suddenly...
all these weeks of feeling your pain and hurting because i knew you were hurting too, were worth it, just because of that smirk.

i am so glad you are learning how to be happy again- i truly am (even if i'm not one of the things that bring you happiness).
and i hope with all the hope inside me that you will only find more happiness in the future (and i pray that happiness lands solely in Jesus Christ.)

currently quoting: "Become so full of grace that you allow your pain to turned into hope for someone else." -breakmychains on tumblr
currently listening:

xx. marcia

photos from my first solo airport adventure:
// first time at bojangles in charlotte, north carolina
// watching airplanes
// good books and pumpkin spice lattes

twelve months

i wrote this twelve months ago...it's funny how things can change so much, but still be the same.currently reading: wives and daughterscurrently quoting: "I am looking for someone to share in an adventure I am arranging and it's very difficult to find anyone. - j.r.r tolkien currently listening:xx. marcia

mangled thoughts + a cliche` quote

"my thoughts are stars that i cannot fathom into constellations." - john green.

did i just quote the most cliche` john green quote ever? um, yeah. it's super cheesy and cliche` (and honestly pathetic), but right now it's just accurate.
i feel like i have so many things spinning around in this head of mine. the starts of many good things, and the starts of some stupid things. but the thing is- i only have pieces of the puzzle. i can't seem to put the pieces (err. stars) together to form my constellations. it's so frustrating because my two favorite seasons have started, and i'm filled with anticipation and nostalgia. but i feel it's all going to waste because i can't get myself together.

i'm just sitting here thinking of all the things i want to start, stuff i want to write, photographs i want to take, places i want to go.... and it's just getting all twisted up.

basically, i just need to find a way to refocus and stop spinning.

currently reading: a tree grows in brooklyn - betty smith
currently quoting: "i'd rather have coffee than compliments right now." - jo march (lousia may alcott)
currently listening:


xx. marcia