i wrote this twelve months ago...it's funny how things can change so much, but still be the same.currently reading: wives and daughterscurrently quoting: "I am looking for someone to share in an adventure I am arranging and it's very difficult to find anyone. - j.r.r tolkien currently listening:xx. marciaTuesday, September 17, 2013
twelve months
i wrote this twelve months ago...it's funny how things can change so much, but still be the same.currently reading: wives and daughterscurrently quoting: "I am looking for someone to share in an adventure I am arranging and it's very difficult to find anyone. - j.r.r tolkien currently listening:xx. marcia
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Deletetell him.
hug him.
speak your mind.
don't lose contact because you are afraid to speak.
do it.
tell him.
"look in his eyes with answer he has been searching for in yours." /sc/ (me)
pray hard. pray long. i assume you love him because he is your friend. the bible says love is long suffering. (love that. love is willing to be patient and suffer all the while) talk to me girl if you need to. <3
thank you so much- i really needed to hear that. the thing is, my family stopped going to the co-op where we met and i haven't seen him in over four months. and what makes it even harder is last spring, he completely walked away from God and his faith. when I first met him, he was a typical home-schooled guy. he was firm in his beliefs, he was a total conservative politically, and he became one of my best friends. we had the best time ever together in class, and that year was probably the best year of my life. then we didn't see each other all that summer, and when he came back to co-op that fall- he was a completely different guy. he hardly smiled, barely acknowledged me, and completely lost all his foundation. (and that was when i wrote that piece up there.) and then last spring I found out he completely walked away from his faith... that was probably the hardest thing I've had to go through in my life. I knew he was struggling and I tried to help him, I tried to just be there for him, but I never imagined in my wildest dreams that he would completely give up on God. (I've never had to deal with anything like that before) On the last day of school (which was my last day at co-op as well), I saw the side of him that I hadn't seen for 5 months. Two of my girlfriends and I were saying goodbye and I was tearing up when he came over to say goodbye. He saw that I was crying and he didn't say a word, but he just gave me a long hug and then said "It will be okay. Goodbye, Marcia." Later when I got home I saw that he posted a message on my facebook wall saying, "...You are one of the sweetest, most caring human beings I know and will probably ever know..." << okay, i cried like a baby after i read that. And I've seen him once since, and that was at a large birthday party where we barely spoke. We still casually talk every once in a while on facebook, but I've never seen that side of him since. Instead I see him through his facebook profile pictures and his statuses.. and I can still see the pain in his eyes and the hurt in his heart. I can see through his posts about his sleepless nights, and depression; I've watched him shutting out people... I can't tell him to go to Jesus because he doesn't believe in God. And I feel so utterly helpless, the only thing I can do is pray. You are so right, "love is willing to be patient and suffer all the while". thank you so so much for that, lately I've been a bit discouraged because I feel like I'm running into a brick wall over and over and the only thing I have to show that I'm trying is a bruise on my forehead. But the same day you commented, I found the song Dear John by Mandisa. It's a song she wrote about her brother John who isn't a Christian, and basically she's telling him that she prays for him daily and reminds him that "There’s hope in every situation, No matter what you’re facing everyday. But it’s up to you, You get to choose. The Father is waiting there with open arms..." God just totally sent your comment and that song to me at the perfect time. <3
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Well, for one thing, no one "doesn't believe in God." You said he walked away from faith and religeon, think about it, to admit that He doesn't exist, means you have faith in that. If he really was a believer, (your friend.) then he isn't gone, he has just gotten off the path. Just because he stopped being your friend doesn't mean you have stopped being his. I have seen this happen, and I know it hurts, it somehow feels like your responsibility, but it's not. It IS however your responsibility to show the light of Christ within you towards him. He's running, but what from? God didn't turn from him, he turned from God. God doesn't shun his people. Your friend needs Jesus. And did he actually say that he isn't a christian anymore? Once a christian, always a christian. You can't lose your salvation. M, if truly was of Christ, then he still is, he's just gotten off the path. Being his friend, showing the Christ-like example, and praying and maybe even going out of your comfort zone to witness, is all you can really do right now. Maybe posting scriptures of encouragement for scriptures that apply to his situation on facebook is one way to get his attention.
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